Photography opened my eyes to a different world. A self-portrait project years ago hinted that I needed to get to know myself. Counseling unlocked the mystery hidden in my pictures. My fantasy childhood was just that, a fantasy. I learned my memory blanks are the results of PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder with Dissociation at a severe level. In this book I share the most difficult transition I ever experienced, integration. Revised by making the format smaller with the same text and pictures.