Over the last few months I have been thru some of my worse fears in relationships. I was engaged to my long time boyfriend of 4 years, whom cheated on me. I have felt so alone, betrayed, unwanted, unloved and yes unbeautiful. Ever since that day I have been walking around in a daze. I have started to look at things and people differently now. I wonder what they are thinking and doing when I’m not around and who is telling the truth and who is lying to me. I look at sunsets, trees, and flowers and see how beautiful and simple they are and wish that someone could see that in me. The flowers I shot are studio and naturally lighting. Shot with my Canon 40D in RAW format, there is very little if any photoshopping. I wanted their natural beauty to show thru. So why did I call this book unbeautiful you might ask. I have felt like all the time I was in my relationship I was the only one, he told me I was beautiful to him, but in that moment I was told he cheated on me I felt like I meant nothing. Then I would look at the things around me and see how beautiful they are and wonder why I had always walk past them and never stop. Their beauty only last for a short time then they are gone. I called my book unbeautiful because we often look past our natural beauty, and see only the negative. As the reader looks thru my book I want them to see past the just pretty flowers and look inside not only the flowers but in themselves and find their inner beauty, just as I am learning to do.
The Wedding of Alex and Jennifer Published June 12, 2009