When I was a teenager, I looked up to poets like Hemmingway, Whitman, Poe, Tennyson, and Bukowski and philosophers like Nietchze, Socrates, Marcus Aurelius, and Sarte. Inspired by these men, I began to write a great deal of poetry and a few short essays.
I've always been an introverted person and have difficulty expressing my emotions to others. Through writing, I quickly found a way that I could constructively vent these feelings. I wrote about love, infatuation, anger, sadness, random thoughts that filled my head, and occasionally happiness. As I grew older, I allowed the poetry to become looser. Rhyme and meter were thrown out for a more erratic, rambling method of composition.
About a year ago and a half ago, I tried to compile the work together into a complete and concise bound volume. Needless to say, "Don't Waste Your Money On This Book" was not a success. I just couldn't find the best way to organize it and was including far too much work. Because of this, I set out to create a slightly trimmed down version that cut out many of the rants and essays and a few of the poems that just didn't fit with the rest of the text.
This new collection needed a better name. I realized that I have a tendency to fumble for the right words to express what I'm thinking to others. So it's only fitting that "Fumbling for the Write Words" would be an appropriate title to a literary work that contains work spanning about 15 years of my life. Even now, I'm having a bit of difficulty determining the right words to describe this book.
My name is Ben. I'm a freelance illustrator and owner of Neo-Elegance Design in Dayton, OH. I was born in Clarksville, TN in April of 1980. I'm the fourth and youngest child of a carpenter/sculptor father and a seamstress/English teacher mother. My family traveled the United States from the East coast of Virginia to the West coast of Alaska before settling in Ohio when I was 8. After being home schooled through 5th grade, I awkwardly started public school in 6th grade and graduated "almost with honors" from Fairborn High School in '98. Since high school, I've attended and dropped out of two different colleges (the second one 4 or 5 times) and am working on a record for the longest time spent getting an associates degree (10 years so far and almost a year of full time classes to go). Throughout my life, I've been fascinated with mathematics, physics, chemistry, architecture, engineering, medicine, and astronomy, but found that I had a talent for creating art and spent most of my post-hi