Lost and Found (Repeat) came out of a desire to tell the story of living with Reactive Attachment Disorder as I settled into my eighth decade. I wanted to finally tell the truth. Rather than presenting a psychological self-help tome or in an attempt to add to the existing theoretical literature, I wanted to tell my story as if talking to a trusted friend. This book illumines (hopefully) the why of the many kinds of lack of trust I have known, also of many leavings by myself and of others, and includes my sexual awakenings and resultant three abortions.
Structurally, this book is set out in short chapters, vignettes even; some overlapping others in time, some launching forward. Sometimes linear, sometimes erratic, some chapters holding answers, some nothing more than more questions. Some are more like casual conversations, rememberances, random thoughts. Collectively, this slim volume is a glimpse into a life journey with RAD-think with no interpretations, solutions, or conclusions.
However. If putting down my thoughts, memories, and selected experiences regains me full use of me, whoever that is even with RAD and AAD as my lifelong traveling companions, and if someone else reads this and takes some solace, then trying to answer the question, how has RAD manifested in my life, has been worth the effort.